Well, it is amazing what happens in a year's time is it not???
I am constantly amazed at how friendships ebb and flow..... ya know??
Friendships are forged, some of these friendships are tried, can not stand up to the trials, and fall by the way side.
Some of these friendships are shaky from the fires but are still standing, and not giving up.
And yet there are those friendships that go thru the same fires, but come out as strong, if not stronger than before they went in, and the bond is iron clad.
A place I was very comfortable in, where I felt like I belonged, a long lost child finally come home, to be wrapped in a warm blanket, all cuddly, has, over the past year, become a den of snakes, and the warm blanket has turned into a boa, constricting me all around.
I am saddened by this, as I know not where the tide turned, or what I said that turned the sails on the ship, so that the tide is against me. that I could go and change whatever it was that went wrong, but alas, as I have told a very special person, just recently, "you can not go back in time". oh but if I could...... *shakes her head to clear that thought* to much water under the bridge for that thought to be of any use at all.
From this warm and happy place of three years, I have been cast aside, like so much detritus, to be swept up and tossed in the refuse pile.
Tis a sad time, for this long lost child is back on the streets again, looking for a warm place to call home. *deep sigh*
I
am afraid that this child within will be a bit more wary of the open
hand offering solace, a warm place from the cold streets, and be a bit
more withdrawn, until she sees what will be a year from now.
